Monday Musings

“Lord Jesus, open the eyes of my heart that I may see you clearly.” This
prayer comes from Paul’s request in
Ephesians 1:17-18. I find myself returning to it over and over again because it touches on my need and the Lord’s sovereign power. Left to myself, I am like a blind man groping my way through life, bumping into things, tripping, and running into walls. Unless my eyes are opened by the Lord, I will remain in the darkness. But once my eyes are opened to see the Lord, in his light I will see all things clearly.

excert from: One-Sentence Prayers by Ray Pritchard

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I was reading over a My Quiet Corner last night and she had posted a great story, that helped me a lot. The premises of the story was:

Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt
by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way. We feel as
though we are worthless.But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value. Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased, you are still priceless to those who DO LOVE you. The worth of our lives comes not in what we do or who we know, but by WHO WE ARE and WHOSE WE ARE. You are special- Don’t EVER forget it.”


I struggle with this. I guess for me the point: you are still priceless to those who DO LOVE you… so when family members reject you… it’s really hard to swallow. I’ve been giving it to God. But it seems to be a huge stumbling block… I can’t get it out of my head, and I’m so mad about it… so very hurt by it, though I know I shouldn’t take it personally. You still love them, even if they reject you right? I’m just not sure how to get over the feeling of betrayal?

Yesterday was my birthday, and you know as I looked back on it all the people who do love me phoned me. My mom. My dad. My grandma. My brother. Mr. C and the kids too me out. They decorated the “party van” full of balloons and got me a certificate to a salon to get my hair done. It was a really wonderful day. Thank-you Mr. C. I know how hard it was to “remember”. I really appreciate it and had a wonderfully relaxing day.

God is good.
The people in my life who are my family love me..

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It’s fall! My favorite time of the year. And not just b/c it was my bday yesterday (though it was a really great day for it!). I love the color, the smells, the cool breezes in the air. I enjoy fall emmensley.
We had a blast yesterday going to the pumpkin patch with the children and letting them pick out baby pumpkins. There was a fall festival as well, so we had a chance to show the kids the petting zoo and take in a bit of fresh air!

Today I’m working on mount washmore and just trying to get stuff organized around here!

okay, those are my skewed thoughts for the moment. Have a great monday! maybe be bk later. !

(digi kit by shabby princess)

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